I’ve been having a tough time the past week, nothing seems to be going right. I can’t seem to get any cleaning done in the house or in the garden, cannot seem to do any work, Grace won’t eat her tea, my laptop’s not working properly, and most of all Grace is playing up and won’t leave me alone! I feel so alone sometimes, being stuck in the house with a 3 year old moaning and crying constantly asking for sweets, refusing to eat meals! I’ve never felt so drained! I clean one room, start cleaning another room and the first room is already a mess: it’s just never ending!
But a positive: my garden is an absolute sun trap! It’s been amazing. For Grace’s birthday she got a hot tub, slide and trampoline so we have been out in the garden nearly everyday! We had to take the hot tub down so I bought her a little paddling pool and she’s absolutely loving it! She has her slide going into the pool and the hose tied around the shoot so it’s like a water slide! I’ve been able to get washing outside dry which is great, nothing better than fresh dried washing!
We enjoy colouring outside and making dens too! Old wooden chairs and some sheet is the perfect den and sun shade! Grace is getting super tired everyday so I’ve been taking her cover and pillow out and putting it under her den! I’m not getting a lot of house work or anything productive done but I sure am enjoying this time with Grace. I may want to pull my hair out 90% of the time but seeing her smile everyday is the best feeling ever! It’s giving me time to just breathe and be there with her.
I’m not going to lie. I really am going to struggle going back to everyday life. I’ve got so used to this routine that changing and going back to work, grace going to nursery and socialising is freaking me out! I mustn’t be the only one?
It’s sunny again today so my plan is to clean my back and front garden
of all the rubbish that’s lying around, get two loads of washing out in the sun and hopefully clean Grace’s bedroom as well as do some work!
Take everyday as it comes, Hannah❤️
